not good.

It has been the worst week.  While at market, we scheduled the closing on our new house (this picture is of our old house), only to find out that surprise! none of the contingency closing dates will be met--even after we already gave a 30-day extension and got multiple assurances that everything was all lined up and ready to go.  This makes it impossible for us to close on our new house (multiple contingencies are never a good thing.)

The only sale that will go through as planned is our condo. . .   

Which means, the new owners will be moving in, in five days.  And we have no house to move into.

I've been cancelling movers and cleaners and trying to figure out where we are going to be storing all our furniture and where we will be living for the next while until it all hopefully works itself out.  Which I am seriously questioning. 

I am so frustrated.  We have had nothing but road blocks and set backs since April.  First on the Michigan Ave house for six months.  And now on this new house.  I feel so discouraged and confused.  If we felt so good about our decision to move, why is it just not working out?  During the previous hard times, I have felt such a peace that it will work out, and that has been enough to keep my calm.   And I have had enough life experience to know that I will look back at some point, and say aha, i understand now.

But I am not feeling calm right now.  Last night as we were looking for pictures for Ava's start student poster, and I saw all these of our old home, all I could think was: Why did we ever leave?  What were we thinking?! 

We had designed our dream home, and we may not have had a quaint tree lined street, but we planted over 40 trees on our lot and they were growing! We had so much space for lots of fun parties, and a lovely pool right out on the back patio and a mountainside in our backyard (there were occasionally tarantulas and snakes, but still. minor setbacks considering all.)

This is how I feel right now.

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